I was talking through a potential business idea with a good friend when I realized it.
Honestly, I said, I think I just need to get over the fear and do it.
I hadn't noticed until that moment that it was just fear holding me back, I thought maybe I was being wise, maybe I was being realistic and logical, maybe the timing wasn't right, maybe I really did need to perfect that one skill before I could move forward. Talking it through though... I was just afraid.
I'm so good at encouraging other people to act on their ideas, I shared with my friend, but when it comes to my own, I find all the reasons why this wouldn't work, why I should wait, why it sounds crazy.
She smiled and agreed, It's so much harder when it's your own thing.
Right? It seems so easy to see the potential, the brilliance, the of-course-you're-capable-of-that in other people, but when it comes to seeing it in yourself, all the doubts are at the forefront.
We're all in process, always moving, shifting, growing, but we know the one who holds it all, who is steady and not moving.
We're all not-quite-there-yet, but we know the one who is there.
We're always going to have fears trying to creep in, but we know the one who has no fear.
We're always going to want to wait for the "perfect" time, but we know the one who's timing is perfect.
We're always going to wonder if we have what it takes, but we know the one who provides all.
We're always going to have false views of ourselves try to show their head, but we know the one who has the perfect view of us.
We're always going to be starting where we are, with what we have. This is all we can do. This is all we're meant to do. Accept ourselves, and do the best we can with what we have been given. We know the one who gives all and is the source of everything. We're being held. We can step out and grow and move forward in faith and know that whatever the results, things are happening for us. God is present. Love is present. Grace is present.
We don't have to be perfect. We just have to show up. We have to start at the beginning.